Hey Up There? You HEAR ME?

Take me back to that Country Side, help me climb those mountains, 

I wanna be that 

I wanna fly

I wanna run

I only cry

I wanna be the one

I wanna be for her

I wanna see the world

I only lie

I wanna be the best

I wanna beat the rest

I wanna pass the test

I only fail at best

I wanna scream

I wanna achieve these dreams

Yet EVERYMOMENTFEELSLIKEIAMUNSEEN

God you there?

I believe you are, but holy moly I been cussing everyone out, prolly even you sometimes

I not the best at being perfect, I know my pain aint worth it

But God I love you so, I will keep pushing through till I earn it



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