Reminiscing Rem en is ing? How do you spell it?

I reflect of on these misinterpretations. 

Memories, love, sadness, joy, hate, trials, and temptations.

A kid on a swing giving the name Jacoby Jones

Jonesy the skin I rocked for those days with a kid named river.

Rivers lead you down a slide...

Just like the point of that mountain on a cold winter night

Nights when we used to hang those lights.

Lights on me like 8th grade and the choir you rang

Rang prolly too many doorbells that pissed them off.

Off the edge of that friends house you used to jump off of. 

Of what? A single phrase I cut someone off with cause I couldn't hold it in

In what circumstances is it okay to tell someone to stop

Stop that one text some girl had to tell me in order to make me realize what I had done

Done what? What could you possibly do to get that recommend revoked

Revoked? I thought that was the one thing you could not get when you enter solstheim?

Solstheim? Why the heck we talking about video games now JACOB?

JACOB? do you remember those nights? with a bunch of friends in a tent all wrapped up tight?

Tight was the way I feel every time these memories concur.

Concurring 8:42 pm on October 11th is such a weird time to think

Think about it Jacob you pushed so many away and want all of them back

Back to what? the way things were, or have been? It is not a cold winter night.

A cold winter night with the people I once called my best friend

A best friend bail on a date to watching some girl take off her shoes mid movie...Spiderman Right?

"No way...

Home" a place I felt when I first yelled at a person I didn't see after the age of 4.

4 years...Since I sang a song about Some Chili Peppers mid class

Mid class...Kind of like the teacher we all hated and separated on different tables...All 9 of us.

Us...Me and this lil chubb I used to watch crawl around, and now I watch her brother do the same.

Same time and place...what I told my team this morning as we went to compete.

Compete...Maybe for State, no wait, brigade after all, and then onto the next.

Next time it won't turn out as bad as the one before.

Before everyone seemed to dwindle away. 

Away is a place that I feel closest to the person I most revere in this world. 

World...The other side of what I remember you were so afraid of.

Of What?

What did I do to have to tell the truth, and pause for three years for the same spot again.

Again? Weird things always happen in OCTOBER?

October 20 Chubbs, 21 Hiram, 22, Maybe I should tell her? 23, I am not worthy, 24 Breakups and Broken Collar bones, 25 I am the head of this team 26? Weird back to 23 huh?

Huh? Why this time? Is it really the fact you want to go?

Is it really the fact you feel this way?

Are you feeling this, or fleeing this?

Make up your mind Toad, you've told so many, and want to continue forward. 

Forward? which way is forward? Should you reconnect with the ones you care about?

Caring about maybe is about doing it from afar. 

Afar is somewhere only you and her know. 

Know ing that after all those years You still care for some kid who taught you to sled,

you still care for the kid who you taught to play ball

you still care for the kid who seems to never get off the game

you still care for the kid who you first played with on the twins

you still care for some weirdo who saw you doing flys

you still care for the friend who had ponytails and jumped rope with

you still care for the chili peppers..and the girl who you lied to about everything

you still care for the friend who dressed up like a traffic cone?

Weird 

you still care for the friend who went to a stupid ball with

you still care for the friend who takes flicks for a living

you still care for the hundreds of others but this poems gotta end cause 

Well I mean

It doesn't

Does it?

Everything good comes to an end right?

Do you leave it alone, or rekindle the match everynight

Maybe...wait whats that...Got a call?

Oh what great news they approved your papers...Congrats kid...Time to say goodbye to all the ones you left behind already. 

Already ahead of the game far from what really makes you cry.